Live for Today

I think I have lead conversations in the direction that this move has been very hard for me for numerous reasons.

One weird reason is... people know me here. WEIRD. Weird to have someone say... "Jenny Hun....????!"
And I'm like... who the, "hello!? Who are you??"
I haven't had that... since...I lived here.

Let me tangent... 

I was living in Utah 6 yrs ago. I knew a handful of people and rarely every saw them, but that was OK. I was kinda obsessed with dating Jared.  I did meet some other people including HANNAH (that was your shout out) and Haley - both I still keep in touch with.
Then we I moved out to Kentucky where I knew NO ONE. (except you Jared ). It was hard but slowly I was making friends.
Then Jared had his brain tumor ... and his heart thing.... and I was in a situation that no one else really understood -

 Residency

- where one week he worked 119 hrs. - that's 1 hr short of 3 full time jobs - and residency DOESN'T pay that of 3 full time jobs - no where near.

In hard situations I tend to cave into myself. I close up. I don't tell people things that are hard or hurting. I didn't tell anyone (other than family) about the brain tumor until a blog, I didn't tell anyone about the heart thing until a blog.

I don't ANNOUNCE things.

I tend to keep them in me and mill over them again and again. Analyzing, thinking, and finally resolving I don't need help - I don't need other people to let me cry. I can do things on my own.

Stubborn? Yes.

BUT then I made friends. I got into nursing school. I made friends there. I got a job. I made friends there. I started to really 'Connect' to people - and therefore Kentucky.

I started running - for mental and physical reasons. I found I really liked biking with Jared. We found routes to run. We found BEAUTIFUL places to bike and run. I found I loved trees. I love grass. I love storms - even when they are scary with tornadoes... I love running. I love biking. I love having a job. I love horses. I love rivers. I love not having fences. I love the cloudy days. I love the sunset. I love the wind. I love fall. I love corn fields. I love wheat fields. I love white tail deer. I love spring. I even love winter. I love tulips. I love triathlons. I love foggy mornings. I love accents.

I found a love for God's creations. I found myself. I learned so much about myself in those 5 years in Kentucky.

And so this is why I feel it's so hard to move. I found myself in Kentucky. I learned so much about me.

And yet I have to move on. I'm trying to be positive, but it's hard.
 It's hot.
 It's brown,
and I can't find a job.

So I'm stuck at home.
Alone.
All day.
 I'm back to not knowing anyone... except for the random person in the grocery store... or at church... or wherever... (they are everywhere- I kinda liked no one knowing me... I'm such a Loner). Yes, I have a few friends from way back but they are an hour or 2 away.

So what do I like about Az?
I like the cacti. I like the sunsets. I like the sunrises. I like the sun. I like that just the littlest amount of rain causes complete panic. HAHA! - and it makes huge puddles of water for the dog to run in. I like the roads - they are straight and have middle lanes.

While I have applied to numerous jobs, none have turned out. What do I do? Do I get a job not related to my degree or do I keep applying? Do I go back to school? - scary thought.

So for now I keep busy. I decided to start training for a marathon. I am currently in week... 3 of I think 18.

And Jared and I signed up for a sprint triathlon 2 weeks ago. Are we ready?
NO.
But it has been fun cross training the past 2 weeks and we will do fine (except for the 4000 elevation difference).
The past 2 years we have done a triathlon in Louisville that was always about this time of year. It was small and fun. So we found one to do to help us feel more.... 'normal'.

Will I actually do a marathon? I don't know. It all depends on circumstances, but I plan to train for one as long as I can. I am planning on running another half marathon in October, and then there are a BUNCH of Marathons here from January to March. There are two I'm looking at one in February and the other in March. We will see... maybe I will even be able to fly out to Louisville for the Marathon in April???

~The future is unknown, so lets live for today.

DL

Officially I live in Az.

I've given up my Kentucky plates and drivers license. So sad. I have nothing else left from Kentucky.

I personally liked the picture on my Kentucky license the most... and the fact that you didn't have to put much personal information... no weight, no hair color.

 **** on a side note,
                    Why do they even have your weight and hair color on there. Its not like I can't just go and dye my hair red and gain 100lbs in a few months.  However your eye color = cant change. Your height = can change, but you have to go through a very painful procedure that takes 1 month per inch. And to lengthen you have to wear an external fixator .. and AFTER you have lengthened your leg you have to wear the external fixator for 3 months for the leg to heal... and just pray you don't get an infection........ Overall, probably not worth the money/ risk/ pain.

******

BUT to balance that out... I'm back to renewing my license every... well I don't do math so it expires 2052.  To bad I'm not staying here forever.


For the next one I get, should I put my hair up or down?

m0RbiD mUch??

Last night while I was watching a show and Jared was reading I asked him a question. It was a quick one. It went something like this...

Me: "Hey, I have a question for you."

Jared: "Ok, what?"

Me: "If I had been decapitated and all the police had were my body, would you recognize me?"

Jared: "..."

Me: "I don't know if I would recognize my own body... so could you?

Jared: "Of course I would recognize you............... Where did you come up with a question like that?!?"


Ah, the joys of marriage.

Bike Ride

Well, since Jared is official working and all I'm doing is all that "we just moved business".

You know the change of address, the registration, the emissions, the drivers license, the insurance, the etc, etc, etc...

I went for a bike ride with one of my only friends still living in the Phoenix area.

It was a fun ride (although short) we still got out 'I'm really out of shape' workout done.

Ah how I love my friend Sarah. We have been friend from the 6th grade on. We are beyond goofy and rarely ever talk to each other, BUT we are still great friends.  We are just understanding that the other is busy.. and I don't think we like to talk on phones, so we just understand periods of not talking and pick up where we left off.

And anyone who would be willing to fly out and drive across the country with you and a car sick dog must make the "Best Friend" list, if just by default.